I feel disgusting too, sometimes i think: "..it was better when i was anorexic.."
I know i have to be healthy, but.. i was so happy you know?.. how to change a philosophy?.. my weight is normal... now.. but i dont like it.. and it scares me: meds make you gain weight? damn.. i swallow anti-depressives too.. No, no, no, this is not what i need right now... Please!! some tips!!