I'm fed up
I'm fed up of living everyday, minute by minute, or half hour by half hour. I'm fed up of going to bed on a night and having disrupted sleep and v.disturbing nightmares... fed up of dreaming about John my dreams and nightmares are torturing me... they're getting really bad
The antidepressant I've been given is also an anti anxiety and a sleeping pill... my doc says it should make me sleep and get rid of my nightmares... I want to take it purely to get rid of these disturbing nightmares, but I'm still so scared of taking it.
I'm a mess.
I miss John. I love him... I wish I could be friends with him, but how am I meant to do that........ aaaaaaaarggggghhhh, I was doing ok before this happened!!!!!!!!!!

Molly