(((((((((molly))))))) Sweetie, take your medication. Give it a try. It is a measured dose of a safe medication. Give it a try and talk to your doctor. Hold on to how well you felt yesterday, how excited you were. Sometimes minute by minute is how we have to hang on. You're just starting your journey--someday you'll look up and realize you haven't lived minute by minute but day by day. It's good that you acknowledge your feelings for John, but put them in their right place, hon, and move forward. You can do it--you already have.