val, what was this post suppose to mean??
Are you still feeling as down as you have told us here and at chat?
If so, like I have advised you in the past, and often, please get professional help, life is too short to remain miserable if you do not have to, you are young and have your whole life ahead of you, with help (I know from my own experience) you can get through this, believe me it is possible I use to think it would never be possible that I can be happy, and even now I have some rough times but I am here, decided that "checking out" wasn't the answer. I beg you for the last time, PLEASE get professional attention, by getting ours is not as effective as seeing a professional, though you know we are here to support and listen to you If a depression is lasting more than 2-3 weeks they say a person should seek professional help, and you have been feeling like this for months, it sounds like it is time for you to do so, so please do.
Take care of yourself now and realize you have a purpose on this earth, you may not see it now but in time you will, and you just may like it after all

** hugs for hope **
"darkeyes"

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON