If you've read any of my past posts, you know I am swamped at work, working horribly long hours, doing every job possible in the office and it is stressing me out something fierce. We recently hired a new front desk girl who is 61, has no front desk experience but has been a manager and a medical biller. In talking with "my" doctor (the doctor at work that I deal with) he commented on how she is very overqualified and she's better suited for management rather than front desk. I said I didn't want to talk about that because then I start worrying whether I will still have a job. He stated that I will always have a job (relief). Today, my manager called me and stated that she is going to move some things around out front and this new person do other things. Things that she used to give me to do but are (her words) "more menial", such as doing the mail, making meeting appointments for the doctors, etc. I've been in charge of the company christmas party and holiday wine tasting open house for the past three years; now she is wanting to give that task to the new person. I should be happy because it's one thing off my plate, but I'm shaking. The negative part of me--the part that always seems to rear its head--is saying "you are slowly being replaced because as always you are worthless", "you are a loser". Those are going over and over in my mind. I almost messaged her back and said it's ok, that I can do the parties this year and next year she can have them; but it will be better stress-wise if I do give them up. But not emotional wise. Another part of it is the perfectionism of me--I can do it and do it right. "She won't do it right" is going through my mind, but is it "right" or is it "like me"? God I hate my mind. Why won't it shut off, be willing to release some smaller things and not take it as a personal attack? Why am I so defective that an offer of help is seen as "I'm not good enough"? Stupid mind.