YOu are exhibiting classic signes of being bipolar if you pdoc doesn't diagnose you as such then you need to find a new pdoc.
This can be a very empowering time...I know that when I was first diagnosed I wasn ot in a good frame of mind, denial and such. after the many years of therapy and going off meds to then become manic.
I have had to apoligise to everyone around me for my behavior...this remorse is normal and don't beat yourself up about it. You are getting things straight in your mind and I think it is very exciting to be able to have some relief in site. Being bipolar is no picnic but medications have given me some stabilty.
bizi