hi everyone,

im lonely, i dont have anyone to talk to who understands me and im scared to admit that i might have some serious depression problems and after reading some of the info's written on this website i feel that there might be hope...
I had suicidal thoughts for days now and feeling depressed on and off for sometime. Probably cost by pregancy and homesickness.

its 1.30am now and everyone's asleep...its very quiet, lonely and dark.
i feel so isolated most of the time, i live away from family and dont have real friends (friends i could share problems with openly with trust). My husband is a good man, his loving and supportive but his work often takes a lot of his energy and by the time I needed to talk to him his already tired and emotionally un-available.
there is more to that....but i will stop here and hopefully will get some input from what i have written so far? im normally a very private person and this is something new for me so who ever is reading this i will ask for your honest but loving responds.
a lot of people might say " i have nothing to complain about" i have healthy family, good home, food on the table" but for some silly reason that is not enough to fill the emptiness i feel inside.....

peace