I feel this way as well...I have a great job, a great husband who loves and understands my depression, a great mother in law who used to be a psychiatric nurse, a pair of wonderful Rat Terriers, a brand new car....why am I depressed, why do I feel empty most times when I should be on cloud nine??? my employers graciously allow me to come onto this site to help with my depression on breaks and my lunch 1/2 hr. I used to have unrestricted access to this site and they considered me an excellent employee-but now they can't or won't understand that I can NOT schedule when the depression hits me-coming here never interferred with my work before but NOT being able to come here when I need it...that hurts me, and they refuse to see it. I too am usually a very private person-I find it much easier to talk here than if I were with someone in person-this makes it easier in many ways....the problem I had at first was being totally honest with myself and others-especially my therapist. You are always welcome here-there is always at least one person here that knows where you're coming from because they've been there...if not exactly, then so close it might be scary. I hope things get better for you and for everyone else here. Blessed Be....Soveh