In 05, when I first went to the ER after a SU attempt, someone working there didn't do the proper procedural paperwork for me to be admitted to the MHU--and I got referred from the MHU staff to my rheumatologist. So, I wasn't correctly referred, since my MHU wasn't either. They won't pay until they find out what's going on, who is at fault etc. I don't have the means to pay my (former?) rheumatologist, he doesn't return my calls or respond to messages I've left or the letters I've sent.

Haha, yeah, when I just went and did the best I could earlier then came in and mentioned how long it had been since I'd had a shower, he reacted with surprise. I also mentioned how I'd asked starting last Wed, and he didn't say anything directly in reference to that, but asked why I didn't say anything just now. I just said I was tired of waiting.

MH-wise, its not really an increase and compared to last winter (the most active it had been recently), its mild. The 2 voices are constants and have been for 20 years. Lately I've just been seeing bugs flying where there isn't any, and small animals moving when there aren't. When I go outside, I hear the grass swishing and crunching slightly like someone/something is walking closeby. Paranoia is brief, 10-30 minutes at a time.

Due to my living situation, and the number of adults in the house, 2 of which are able bodied, I don't qualify. ¬.¬