aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!


this is too hard
I want John back ... I haven't spoken to him since.....?.... monday morning? I think... and I was planning on not talking to him again, how can I? It would kill me... but having him gone out of my life completely is killing me ... ok, so he lied to me... and if he came to see me today and asked to get back together, I don't think I could no matter how much I love him(part of me wishes we could though)... but he was my best friend too... I know a lot of people say that their boyfriends/girlfriends/partners/wives/husbands are there best friend... but John really was to me... we got on like a house on fire, could tell each other anything, we had loads of things in common.... oh god I just miss him this is the hardest thing ever, why has he done this to me
what's wrong with me

I don't want to do this anymore, I CANT do this anymore