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After an evening of playing "Let me help you" I realized that I came to the "forums" tonight b/c I, the big-mouthed, unemployed psych nurse, who uses the smilies too much (according to one person) is experiencing a somewhat serious problem of my own........

I wasn't too sure which forum to post this problem in b/c it involves a few different aspects

For the past few weeks I have problems with not being able to sleep for days at a time b/c "sleeping" felt "confining", my ED's(which would be under Eating Disorders) are going whacko d/t different of my "alters" (this would going under Dissociative Disorders) In the big picture; it kinda goes like this:

I am on the Internet, working on a Human Services project of my own (since I'm unemployed, I still feel compelled to help my fellow mental health consumers, I'm a psych nurse..hey!))
around the clock. I am obsessed to the point where I don't eat/or I can't remember when/if I ate; when I do try to eat consciously...one of my extreme alters w/ a big ED problem will not let us swallow anything, she'll push it back up into our mouth; I don't sleep but I exercise continuosly while I work on the computer (don't even ask); I have one alter who has a definite JD attitude towards hoarding our meds & taking too many at inappropriate times; "someone" apparently is taking laxatives (I don't know why b/c I don't think we eat that much)Lately, when I look in the mirror I look really fat; but when I'm "power walking" around town I look at my image in store windows and I see a very thin person. I cannot get myself to weigh in b/c I can't be sure the numbers I'm seeing are "real" or not......my husband is really getting annoyed w/ me when I don't sleep; or when I'm on the computer; or when I'm staggering around b/c someone ate too many hoarded meds; finding bruises on my body & I don't know how/why I have them...............

Ok........Everyone cannow tell me that I need , my other alter who's agoraphobic keeps cancelling our appts. w/ our T...."and she's the one giving advice??"?

I'd appreciate some feedback, if anyone has any ideas or would like to tell me to "get lost" I'm used to people thinking I'm crazy * "bouncing" me out of support groups....

YO! Is reality just a state of mind in one parallel universe? Which mirror do you trust? Someone bought abig bottle of diet pills yesterday & this afternoon I opened the bottle and it's half empty........

Why I'm I posting this?



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