Oh sweetheart!! I'm so sorry! You are right--you are grieving and you don't need a "friend" to trigger you more. You need to fill your life with positive things and positive people. If I had to find someone to take to a play, I couldn't, so don't feel bad. You are taking the steps necessary in your young life to move forward. Focus on the positives of the past week and the positives that it could bring for you. You will meet people, you will develop friends that will be positive and not hurt you. I so wish you wouldn't have had your heart broken by John, but don't let it define you. Remember that you are loved, you are a wonderful young lady. Spend the time with you mom while you heal and learn to feel happiness again.