Thank you everyone, I'm sorry I don't really have the energy to thank you all individually and respond individually.

It's actually not the leg for me, it's only a finger, which will be amputated I'm probably over-reacting and it's "just a finger" (and not an important one) but I will look and feel like a complete freak.

Thank you everyone. I feel like a sink right now and I don't want to drag everyone down with me, life is a drag right now and it's times like this that really make me question why I continue to keep going when it's one bad thing after another. A lot has happened in a short amount of time, not all things I can talk about here, but my mind is jumbled and my head feels broken. I keep asking myself, "is this worth it?"- and when life is this dark I think I know the answer.