I have been on Depakote for 2 years now and slowing gaining back all the weight I lost previously. So now I look and the mirror and see a fat person instead of the thin person I was. I haven't had the energy to do judo anymore and what's worse, my pdoc just put me on risperdol which has made it all even worse. I think my appetite has changed and I know I eat too much of the "wrong foods". The thing is, I FEEL better when I eat more fruits and veggies, so why do I then eat blah stuff? I got my hair done yesterday and of course had to look at myself in the well-lit mirror for over 2 hours. All I could see is a bloated face.