((molly))) maybe you are in a temporary time of transition and life change.. dont let it get you so down that you reverse course.. you've come this far and you've really had some insights and self learning and i know how that isnt real fun, but remember you were strong enough for this and you still are.. you have the power to make good choices for you.. its a good thing for all of us because one healthy person can help thousands... just remember that at the center of all this you are really doing this for yourself as an act of love... give it time, ok?