Are there any chances of your H going to counselling with you?

Something to think about in RL, don't know if you'd be up for it...Do you have any hobbies? Anything you like to do? Perhaps there is some sort of group or club in your area you could check out. That way, you could meet some people you have something in common with, and maybe make a friend or two. Some of the best support I've lucked into have been people outside the recovery world. I didn't start off spilling the whole beans to them, but over time we got to know and trust each other. Sometimes just having people in my life can be enough support for me even if they aren't directly involved. They exist and they like me, and sometimes that's all I need.

I'm really sorry that your H can be such a butt-head. I don't get that - I REALLY don't. Why is it so hard to love and accept someone for who they are? I dno't get it...We love you Pixies.