Sometimes I get these crazy ideas that I don't really need the meds because the drs just THINK I have bipolar disorder. This really makes me feel crazy because I know the pdocs have had extensive training in their field, but I am again at the point where I am questioning it all. There are just so many side affects that I start thinking...ummm, maybe I can live with a few manic episodes and a few depressive episodes..... Even though I've stopped taking my meds numerous times with the same results, I am just over it. It is difficult just to go on sometimes like this.