There is a counseling center... but I'm kinda afraid to go there... my memory is pretty pathetic, but I think when I went to the counseling center at another college when I was suicidal last time it may have complicated my enrollment status... it's just so unclear though, between it being pre-ECT and the fact I OD'd on campus, where I was living at the time. And it was a Christian U. instead of a state one...

I think I'll look into some kinda nutrition drink. But making a net doesn't work too well with me... I fall quick and hard, straight to death thoughts, no inbetween. And I'm really disconnected from people... that's one of my biggest problems...