Thank you for your honesty, Tao!

Time for creativity then...
Finding someone you can talk to is so very important...whether IRL or online. Since you feel disconnected from folks for now, perhaps someone you trust here would be willing to mentor you. It wouldn't have to be a life-time commitment, but you would have to gift yourself with this person who will stand by you.
I know it's hard! But there is no reason for you to go it alone...
Trust issues issues are among the toughest to resolve, but they can be resolved...baby steps if necessary are just fine.

My memory is non existent! Complete understanding there
Counseling at school. Let go of what happened at the other place. Here the counseling department is very, very good. You are assigned a counselor, but if you don't feel compatible with them then you can request another one.
Without breaking confidentiality, they can arrange different things to help you. Obviously your name is used but no reasons are given...
I was able to work out a better schedule where I wasn't overwhelmed, arrangements were made for me to tape my classes because I got lost at times--the tapes allowed me to listen over and over until I got the core lesson. That in turn boosted my confidence a bit so tests, etc. were not bombs that blew up in my face.
Ah the tests...again, arrangements were made that I got just a bit longer to complete them...there were some that I was able to take orally. Not one professor balked, made me feel stupid, or acted as though I were any different--there were students with physical disabilities that got the same help. Because mine were not visible at the time, it was probably accepted that it was a necessity for whatever reason.

Did I feel weird? For about an hour--my counselor was super! Initially I did feel awkward about the accommodations. She was very straight forward in telling me that my "condition" didn't make me a freak; it just meant that I was also entitled to help.

Small things that felt Very Big were cut down to a manageable size.

The nutritional drink--please compare the labels. Some of them are pure crap--more sugar than a dozen donuts.
Please don't rely on them as your only source of nourishment. If you get hungry, no matter what it is, eat...it helps to break the cycle of nothing sounds good so we don't eat.

All of the above is sharing what worked for me. Pull out what you think will work for you...if it feels like nothing will, please look again. Sometimes we need a second look at what is doable.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do...I sincerely mean it. One thing--I don't bite but I don't take any BS and I don't get drawn into drama. I'm honest but try and share anything with respect and support.

Cap