How do you explain? You jump right in anywhere along the way of your story and we'll catch up as best we can.
Happy b-day alikat.
You can use the private message feature to contact folks who offer that to you. You could use chat and talk in there or even set up a private chat room so that you can decide which folks you want to share with. You could post here bit by bit as you're able.
You have many options and I'm glad you're here. Please stay safe and do what you must to remain that way. If no hospital then by all means stay safe!! (can you tell I worry a bit?

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Go at the speed that works for all of you.