Struggling...not losing. I say we form a human life raft and all hang on. Sometimes we can float supported by others, sometimes we tread water so others can float. We can all do this. Molly, don't make me use my stern voice (and very tall letters) telling you to start your medication. If your mother were diabetic and refused to take her medication, you'd have a good talking-to with her, wouldn't you? It's the same thing. You have gotten this far...your road has been anything but smooth but you have traveled it nonetheless. Take the next steps that are available to you.