Hate it, Hate it, Hate it, hate the loneliness of it, hate the way it plays in your mind like being caught up in a computer game that you dont want to be in, hate the way you try to tell others how you are feeling and they look at you as if to say, "what can I say? what can I do?", hate the way you have to continue to live and each day is the same as the day before, a ****ing nightmare, hate the way you look at the people around you going about their life and enjoying the good moments, and to you that isn't to be...hate the way we only get one life and what a life it has turned out to be, why? I know, "what can I say? what can I do?", the answer???? Nothing I guess, I know what I know and you can't unknow it, EVER! roll on death.