I have tried so f*cking hard!! So hard to be ok, so hard to be positive!! But no, no-one can just help me along with it, they just keep pushing me harder and harder to make me be negative and depressed again..

All I want is to just die.. It's what I must deserve.. Why don't they just get that I'm stressed to ***** and taht I need a little help? Not more stressing out! Come on, I even wet the bed!! At 17? I'm so embarrassed.. Twice I've wet the bed because of stress.. I make sure I don'tdrink a single thing before bed.. And I go to the loo just before anyway.. My head's itching like crazy, causing my hair to fall out because of stress..

I'm so, so damned fed up! Fed up of the stress, fed up of the arguing, fed up of the ****, fed up of LIFE.

I just want to cry, then cut, then take some pills, then cut some more and be left to die.. Or for a friend to come and care for me, take me to hospital, stay with me, look after me a bit.. Instead of dumping me on some sh*tty nurse who won't bother doing stitches when my cuts need it, "because you'll pull them out" when, in fact it's because she just can't be f*cked!!

I hate it.

I just want to die it's what everyone wants.