hi Pain.. the pain will die before you do if you let it... we have several recovering depressed people at PC.. everyone of them felt like you do at some point..

we are a group of survivors ive fondly dubbed 'those who never give up!' ..

please call emergency for yourself and do the best caring thing you are able to as needed..

sometimes we all have felt alone and needed someone to listen... and when someone actually does, its so cool!

welcome to PC and we all look forward to sharing in your miraculous recovery!