Hi Dayzee,

When things become so confusing and out of hand with losing time and parts that have dangerous agendas sometimes only T can help get things under control. Without communication it's been impossible for me to get anything done to help myself when my parts have needs like that - that are sabotaging every attempt that you make to have help. There must be something that upset them.

It will be ok to go to T's - it's safe to get help - you don't have to be afraid. Ask someone to come with you now, while you have it in your mind. It will help stay out of the hospital.

Please take care. i know that it's so hard to have the need to be the thinnest person and i'd never want to mess with your deep needs. Let your T know to see if there's an easier and safer way to get what is better for your body (((((Dayzee)))))safe hugs. It sounds like you need help to control the chaos inside.

In our system there are 'normal' parts who we can distract us to let us get away from the parts that don't understand the consequences of the overdose of diet pills? Are there any parts that you can encourage to come out to help tide you over this hard place?

We have a couple of special interest parts that can drop everything and spend the day gardening-starting seeds inside or reading a book on John Keats poetry.
Maybe read through some of the forums and there will come an idea to distract the ED alter and get you involved with a safer pursuit.
Dayzee you are so needed in your field. It shows how hard you're trying because you asked for help. Please let something that you read get through to a strong alter that can help bring safety and help. Please try to get yourself to a friend's house to call your T or pick up the phone if things continue to stay out of control.

You're halfway there. You can do it - you've helped others and now it's your turn to allow yourself to receive help.

i hope things calm down inside soon.
Please take care,
kerria