Sigh. Tks folks. It's nearly impossible to believe how it all went down... the farther I get from it, it more I think, see, how I was SOOOOO manipulated!

I have no clue about being able to reneg on the mediation agreement..but if it's to be done it has to be Monday which is the third day after the contract...if it falls into that area. I doubt it.

I have been victimized again, and from time to time during the day my attorney would come into her office (where I sat alone all day) and say, " You're the decision maker here..." and leave.

The mediator was more of a judge and jury...even arguing with me about things. My attorney joined in with him once I recall///about my needing home help... and insisting that I choose what day and time I wanted a maid. When Itried to explain ;how that isn't how it goes, for me or the cleaning service, they couldn't understand anything. At times my attorney and the mediator would take turns saying, What I think is... and if I tried to converse with their issue they said , "I'm talking." And yet they never asked me, or discussed it fully with me....

arrrggghhhhhh!!!! Talk about angst! I need to know if I can reneg, if I should, or go on. (In the past when Iw ent on instead, I have regretted it when my disability became worse and needed what I "went on" over.... rather than cause the stress that fighting would cause.) Did that make sense to you?

PTSD. I had full intention of doing this differently...

Did I write how the mediator said, " Why not go ahead and settle the whole case, and so what if that only gives you money to live 8 or 9 years, do that, enjoy those years and THEN you can jump out of the window." [PS I never threaten jumping out of a window! I will go off the roof! LOL}