Hi. I am an MSW, trained to do psychosocial counseling, but i do case management now. So I don't see a clinical population and am not an expert. But I did study bpd extensively in school. I am here because my husband has a relative with npd and pbd.

If I could just gently add this bit of information about the "sideways" sensation, which i hope helps: your psychoanalyst may not really emphasize DSM diagnoses or at least pds. If your psychiatrist is evaluating you to make a differential diagnosis on axis II (any personality disorder at all), that might cause you to feel confused. It can take a little while to make the pd diagnosis. My husband's relative has been in therapy his whole life, and hasn't actually been diagnosed (as far as we know) correctly. Not to get too precious about diagnoses, but it might help you to go back to the psychiatrist, to find out what he/she thinks about you and npd. They are almost always accompanied by anxiety and depression, so it does make sense that it should be ruled out. I can imagine how confusing it is if you are going to clinicians of differing schools of thought.Knowing the other two mood disorders is a good start. I wish all of you good luck.