hi Zen..

i remember having a lot of the same feelings back in school... maybe since they dont know you it is a little easier to tell yourself that if they did, they would love you..

remember that school is about learning.. its a time of learning about social skills and history and music, friends and boyfriends ..

during these years it seems very important to be liked and we might put a lot of investment in our popularity index..

remember if you can that high school is only a short time of your life.. after these years pass you will make new friends at work and through other social activities... you can choose peace and joy for yourself and it doesnt matter if others agree or disagree with your decision.. dont let these relationships define you... you can define yourself...

tell yourself they dont hate you, maybe they are shy and unable to express kindness to others... you dont have to choose that for yourself..

let your determination be what they admire most....