I dont know, i mean so much s hit runnin through my head i have no one in my life to turn to, i aint callin 911 bc i dont really want to go to the hospital, im hiding all my feelings from everyone around me, im good at that, no one around me knows im depressed, i really bad wanted to end it all yesterday but i didnt, and i dont want to go get help, i feel this is something i have to deal with myself but i dont know how to and if i go to the hospital everyone will just think im wierd for going there bc the reasons i want to yea is wierd reasons, s hit ppl can get over but i cant im wierd like that...