Hi Silver Moon,
I'm a newbie - I send you lots of peace, strength and centredness. It is so hard to find at times I know - but it will pass. I've had awful backslide depressions this year, after moving interstate. They have passed though I thought at the time things were so very bleak. See your Dr for some help in the meantime? Get sleep if you can, have someone clean the house and bring you fresh flowers. Have someone take you somewhere nice to do your favourite thing even if you don't feel like it! Do nothing if that's what you feel like, but do it with a little sprig of a perfumed flower if you can find one, in a glass of water, near your bed or sofa - it will bring calm dreams and sleep and remind you there's hope. This may sound so twee, but I guess they are the things that work for me. Know also that there are so many other human beings out there in this weird web world who care enough about you to post messages to you, and they'd love to hear how you are doing.

Best wishes, Rachael