I constantly doubt myself and i hate it. Its like i am 2 different people sometimes. When i am down i feel so lousy, hopeless, tired, sad, ugly and with no hope for the future. When i am like that i really want to talk to my therapist. Then i wake up feeling good and then i instantly doubt myself. I think i am just making it all up and feel embarassed about having felt down and wanting help.. I then don´t want any help at all. It is so frustrating, especially as it happens from day to day. I just can´t take it anymore. Why can´t i just feel "normal" and lead a "normal" life. Get a job and do what other people do? I am sick of being stuck in life and not be able to get started with something.. If only i didn´t get bored so fast, and if only i could concentrate, maybe then i could focus...?
Ohh i think i am getting a bit depressed again now. I was feeling ok but talking about it always brings me down.

I AM SO SICK OF IT!!!!

Sorry..