Then you need to make clear to him that you want to be in his life, but because of your strong feelings for him, you can't be in his life and watch him date others and if he truely respected you he wouldn't ask that of you. Do you really want him in your life, or do you want the him you fell in love with. They may not be the same, honey. And it hurts. So bad it hurts. If you can seperate the love from the friend, at that point you can have him in your life. But this is not healthy for you.