I love him so badly, but I know that because I love him so much I can't 'just' be friends with him... but I can't let him go... I can't

I've managed to not talk to him at all for about a week... but it's fnally hitting me that I may never ever talk to him again
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Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter