oh yeah i know that feeling, i posted a similar response to someone else who had a similar question. i have gone as far as to get off my meds. but then comes the really terrible part, the reality of my situation, and the difference between when i am on meds and when i am not is clearly evident to those who know me, and to myself of course. the last time i tried that i got very sick from withdrawl and was quickly plummeting into a state of despair. my hubby who at first against meds, now understands that i need them. he went as far as to drive to my father's house to get me some meds (he takes the same meds), since my doc was on vacation. my dad laughed because when he gave my hub the meds my hub's response was "that's it?" as if i really needed alot more, lol. well anyway, sorry to steer off into my own chatter, i totally understand what you are feeling. but before you get off any meds you should definitely consult with your p-doc.