I spoke to my T today about my concern about bipolar and it he does not think i suffer from it. Thats fine with me, but what annoyed me was the reasons why.
He said i had many problems similar to people with bipolar, but what eliminated me from having it was the fact that i know some things or events can trigger my mood, or that i still love my son when feeling down. He also said that if i was bipolar it was impossible to go up and down as frequent as i do. I can go up and down daily. I mentioned rapid cycling but he said that you only develop that because of medicine

What he described to me was all bipolar 1, not a hint of bipolar type 2.

he then said i need to write down whar thoughts i get when feeling down and the we have dto discuss that further.. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Now i am back to square one..