I hate myself for what i have done to myself!! Why did I start cutting those 20 yrs ago- sexual abuse,emotional abuse-kids teasing me family telling me i was not good for anything-depression-why me why did i let this happen to me and now i cant get these things out of my head and now my ankle is bloody and my body is has too many scars- each one tells a story of how i hurt everyday. too much to even breathe.