As I was typing this came through: Mouse, I do not know
how to answer your ???? I do not know where I am personally to give you
one. I know it does not help with your situation, I honestly do not
know.

So why, why send me that song? Did he really just "like the song" and not think of the lyrics? Is it the old mind games again or did it really remind him of us? You're right--who knows. No sense second guessing him and hurting myself in the process. That does not do me a lick of good! My face is the one with the mascarra streaming down it, not his. I take care of me, cannot--cannot!--let my happiness depend on a blessed email. Thank you all who stuck with me during my moments of insanity here! I appreciate it so much!!