((cantstop))) you are processing this all in a healthy way, allowing yourself to have questions and misunderstandings.. thats ok... sounds like the friend thing is still going on.. would some breathing time help you both? your mind is quick to process and ask more questions, you seem to have a need for confirmation about something he isnt coming forward with.. i can almost feel the push/push and retreat dynamics going on for you.. with your abundance of energy, is it possible you are going much faster in thought and deed than he is?

dont blame yourself.. find a workable solution if able.. if not, still dont blame yourself.. you have a kind soul and you are a caring person.. someone is able to match your speed in a healthy way.. maybe its him, maybe not.... be your own best friend, find friends who support you and dont have an issue with it.. they are there and you are worth the wait...