thanks (((((((nowheretorun)))))))) ((((((((((night)))))))
I will talk to my doctor again, but the only thing she can do now is 1. up my medication 2. send me to hospital
I can't see a therapist for another 8 months... she does ask me to go to the surgery once a week to do a CBT thing on the computer, but it's not really helping and even my doc said she wouldn't normally advise someone in 'my situation' to do that, but she wanted there to be some kind of help there whilst I'm waiting to see a therapist. She also asks me to go in to see her every week.

I'm just so alone, I have my mum... that's it apart from my doc IRL... so it's making it harder... my dad also makes it harder too