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Old Oct 28, 2008, 06:40 PM
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Well your weight is nearly at anorexic levels but that doesn't necessarily mean you're anorexic.

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I think for me, anorexia is more about using it has a way of self harming rather than being afraid to gain weight. I know I am not fat,
(although I must admit, I am started to think more and more about that) I mean, don't get me wrong, I don't wanna be HUGE,
but no one does. I guess what I am trying to say is I don't think I have warped mentality that other people with eating disorders normally have.
Anorexia (nervosa) isn't entirely about weight loss. The obsession with food and calories and weight etc is often to disguise or distract from a background issue. You say that you use it as a way of self harm. I've seen it described in that way before and indeed do also starve myself as a 'punishment' sometimes...

Do you think you might look even a bit overweight? If not, it doesn't matter. Not everyone who has anorexia does have that warped vision of the size of the body, although I do know that the DSM-IV requests it to be present.

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sometimes when I haven't eaten
in a while and I start to feel light headed or dizzy or whatever... I think in a way I actually like feeling that way.
Does that make sense? Why is that? I am crazy?
No you're not crazy. I, at least, enjoy the feeling as well. I like the feeling of being empty and knowing that it is benefiting me because I will be losing weight from it. I know that because I am feeling dizzy/ light-headed/ whatever, the lack of eating is having an effect, it means my body is suffering (perhaps also tied in with the self-harm aspect).

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sometimes when I don't eat for a while I am really really hungry... like my stomach hurts I am so hungry,
but then eventually, if I wait long enough, (instead of becoming more hungry... like most people would)
I actually get to a point where I don't feel hungry anymore. Why is that?
Yeah, I don't remember experiencing this, but I have read about this happening to ppl. Quite frankly, it is a good thing to experience. Better than the crazy hunger that can hit starving ppl. There must be some biological reason for the body stopping feeling hungry but I can't work out what it is.

I hope this helps you in some ways ... and let me know if I can be of any further help.
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