((((((((((((((((Multipixies)))))))))))) I understand people not even noticing. A lot of the time, I'm gone and people have no clue (nor do I tell them). There are parts of self here that often get suicidal, especially after contact with certain people and it's so hard. I'm so sorry you are struggling with so much right now. I know it's a positive step forward with the memories, but I also know that sometimes they can blow you out of the water, even though it's stuff from the past.

I've found that oftentimes, when I think I've dealt with something, it comes forward from a different angle due to different parts. It's definitely hard. I hope we can support you here. Luce has a great idea about real time chat if you can do it. It can be hard sometimes, but sometimes it can be pretty beneficial to me.

Take gentle care.