Just my opinion...but the most important thing is getting to where you are comfortable with who you are, not changing yourself to make others comfortable.

It can be hard confiding this kind of feeling to friends and family. Unfortunately, some people aren't good at handling it.

Do you think you could get to an open-minded and non-judgmental therapist or psychiatrist to discuss your feelings? I don't want to create any mistrust in your friends and family, but sometimes a professional is the safest person to talk to first.

Someone close to me was a crossdresser. I don't know that he ever came to accept it himself, and I wish he had. Good luck.