well, once again here it is 2am and Im awake. hurting, cant get comfortable even my sleeping meds which I HATE taking didn't do any good. I am so tired of this. had such a good week last week, heck ddin't even use my sleeping meds just my meditation tapes. but did that work tonight? nope, nothing did. I'm so tired but just cant sleep. have to wonder how much of it is the physical stuff and how much is the mental stuff. feels like my brain just wont, no cant shut down. soon as try, it gets bombarded with every emotion can feel with. I want so bad to go into the room that my hubby has started to sleep in and climb in just to curl up maybe then could sleep. but at same time, do not want to push things with him not there yet. I guess the discord between us is getting to be too much for me to deal with, but what am I supost to do?
Sorry for this kind of a rant fest, just really needed to get out how I was feeling and being about at the end of my rope, well I just dont know how mch more of this stupid disease, RSD I can take nor my marriage can take.

Blessed Be
Deb