I can't do this I miss John... I'm in agony. It's gone from talking to him everyday, from being loved to nothing and I can't handle it. Right noe he'll br gryying on with hid lige, not hurting... bring ok!!!! and I'm just a total mess and don't knoe hoe to hsndle it. I know this is a horriblr horrible horrible thing to say and i'm such an awful person for saying it, but it'd be easier if he were acyually dead... at lwast then i'd know that i could never talk or see him again and i could grieve properly oh i'm such a horrible person.
I'm just so confued, I'm scared of talking to him again incase i get worse... buy e's gone I CAN'T DO THIS, I DON'T WA//NT tO DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why does everyone hate ne, why does noone wanna know me