That's the thing.. I only ever want to help others.. Because I know I can.. But I just can't help myself.. I feel like my singing is even failing now.. College.. I can't even learn the songs.. I just don't get the time anymore, I'm too busy trying to help others, I mean.. Teaching others singing now.. That's another thing.. I suppose I could teach them the songs that I'm trying to learn, but they wouldn't neccessarily want to learn them..

he is in a place to be able to give mke what I need, but he just doesn't think abotu what I need, doesn't think about what he knows will help.. It's like he avoids it and then gets annoyed with me for posting something similar to my original post here, on another forum that he's on.. Because it scares the s**t out of him.. I have told him, he chooses to read it, I don't make him.. So he can choose not to read it and just wait for me to talk to him, see that there's a post on the site and ask about it.. Then I'll tell him about it..

The voices, the people that belong to the voices.. They make me have to hurt myself.. They tell me that if I don't hurt myself now, they'll hurt me every day that I don't obey their demands..

I'm completely stuck, I don't know what to do..