Thank you so much for the welcome and the responses.

I have not seen a T...I believe I know the root cause, I just don't want to fix it. I know that probably doesn't make sense, but...well, shoot, it doesn't even make sense enough for me to add a "but".

My daughter passed away two years ago...and I now have a 1 year old. While I thought I was handling it all very well, I also know deep down that I am trying to make myself the perfect mom for my second child to make up for what happened to the first. Even though it was out of my control.