I think that is partly the reason, but the other reason is I am experiencing a situation involving one of my daughters and my past is gettng mixed up with today and all hope feels lost...each time I think things have past, something else happens and I loose all hope all over again......I emailed T last night and she replied but I emailed again and said she is doing what everone is doing right now, replying to the words coming out of my mouth but their not hearing me and why should they when I dont even know what I'm saying, she replied, she was sorry, she had replied to my words and not attended to the feelings...sometimes its the feelings I just want seen/heard...I felt a sigh of relief and felt the return of hope...