Is it new? Oh no, Its been a lifetime feeling, from the baby in the cot wanting her new mother to know she missed her old mother, but I've never had the words to describe what I needed/wanted, I thought I was just ranting and venting, and didn't know it was feelings inside that were trying to be known. Walking to work at 6am this morning, in the cold I was thinking about the warm glow I felt inside from the email I got, and I begun to say to myself "I feel this way" or "I feel that way", before I didn't understand I have to consult my feelings on matters also. I thought the answer was to be found simply in my head. BUT its not, my feelings feel certain ways about certain things for reasons even I sometimes cannot understand at the time. So is this wanting new? NO, but its the first time I've had words to describe it, a little voice inside of me has lots of things it wants people to understand and now she's excited that perhaps she maybe able get me to hear them also.