I know exactly how you feel, I've been there.
Hurting yourself... I view it as a coping mechanism gone wrong. You feel so much emotional pain bottled up that it needs to explode, or something like that depending on the person. It was like that for me, I know some people also do it as punishment. You DO deserve help. I've felt like I wanted to die to stop the pain. I felt like that last week.
I just wanted it to go away, it hurts so much. I'm out of it just enough now, to realize I was wrong. Everything seems like it's gone. But there are just enough people I care about, even if many of them are far. There's just one thing I like doing. And though it might not feel like it... it DOESNT feel like I can get better... there's a chance I can. Then all the pain would be gone. And I dont have to die.
Don't lose hope jessica. I KNOW you probably don't want to believe it right now, but there's a way out.

If you want to talk about self hurting, please pm me if you don't feel comfortable on the boards. One thing that could help, if it's about pain, try using a rubber band (less lasting damage, but still pain) to help you try to stop. Every person's self hurting is different so I don't know if I could help, but... I HAVE been there, so there's NOTHING to be ashamed about... NOTHING.

Keep trying not to do it again... because it hurts so much to look back on it. Don't give up. You deserve help. Please pm me anytime, or post more.
Sometimes talking can ease the pain - only slighty, but anything helps.

loads of hugs