it sucks, but not you and you can change things.. either in your perceptions or reality... try to bring into focus which of your wants/dreams are now achievable.. let yourself get there in steps.... practice lots of kindness to yourself, such as halting negative thinking and replacing it with something more positive, such as ok, ok, i didnt get everything done, but i got this done, instead of blank generalizations that everything sucks, tell yourself its this thing that sucks, but there is still good available and i can have some now.. then take some time, enjoy something, one small thing is enuf... then you can go back to thinking about everything that sucks but you have just had one good enuf moment.. those can really help when they begin to add up... dont give up...

see your doc as needed and as able.. get IRL support happening for the times you are unable to connect with current life lines....